State of Mind

Finally there ends another semester which looked as if everything is gonna go right but nothing turned out to be good. I was left again in the same bloody hell even after the end of my second year. The end of an year did not change but did the way i spent it. May be i nothing went right for me but this time i feel for it, for the first time i feel i need to confess, i don't know what was my mistake but i know i did com it mistakes. The mistakes i made can extend anywhere from killing time playing games to trusting people who never looked cared me when needed. May be this is not the first time it happened to me in this small life but the only difference is now I am alone, away from highly constrained but my only friend "MOM". This is the period of year where I always think in this same way(immediately after results) but realization never comes. Hope so it does come now. By this time it looks like I have been only hoping but never aiming at it. The word HOPE looks very biased for me...whenever I see that i feel like i have evrything in this world but at the real side of it it says you have nothing except for thoughts. This biased state of these important words are never understood by me till now and these always drown me into a state of extreme discomfort. Speaking of these kind of arbit things make me feel so discouraged in life but at the same time inspire me in the aspects of realization and confession. Anything more I speak of these things now it loos like my brain is gonna blast out whish is already ina state of very high temparature and pressure due to unavoidable complications in life...so  continued later................ciao..bye